1st Blog By Me,

 

I read this book

At the beginning i thought that  it was just another book

Not going to leave an imprint on my life

I wouldn't give it much thought the following days

But i was wrong.

Pippa and Herb had gone through a lot together,

Experiencing Herbs ex-wife Kill herself

Pippa growing out of her old life e.g Pill Popping

The loss of Pippas Mother

Having a family together

They loved each other and fort to be with each other

Herb was a Journalist and he had his own wee office and such.

One day Pippa walked into Herbs office, there was a towel on the couch

And familiar outfit of clothes spread around the room

In the bathroom was one of her bestfriends for almost four years, sobbing wearing one of Herbs casual shirts.

That ^^ All sounds pretty straight forward, common even these days.

The thing that got me is what  Herb said to her " I wanted it to just be an affiar.. but it's more. So much more."

Herb ended up having a massive stroke and dying over the next day or so.

The end of the book has most defiantly left a massive imprint on me:

Books are made up yes? So really it shouldn't put so much thought into my head

But! A horror movie could be purely made up yet it still will scare the crap out of someone, no difference.  

I find it horrible that even after so many years of two people being together he still

had the nerve to have an affair and fall in love with another, younger women.

Is that what life is?

A big lead up to either get: Your heart ripped out by the one you thought would never do such a thing to you or To slowly fall out of love with someone because the 'spark' isn't burning as bright as it used to be?

Why is there no good option in this thing called life, grandparents don't come  across as total lovebirds, even people in their late 40's-50's don't still send off the "I could do you right now" vibe.

Do they all save it for the bedroom or is everyone doomed to dying alone, with an empty heart?

Is that is the way god planned life or did he make a mistake and forget to add the quality of being loyal and the capability of actually loving someone 'till you die? 

Rumor has it, majority of people have affairs and cheat on their so-called loved ones because the spark wasn't there anymore. What does that even mean?! What spark? When the sex was new and interesting? Love ISN'T only sex, yeah i'm sure it plays a part but you never go on those quote sites and read sayings about love with sex all through them, how off putting would that look? E.g "Trust me when i say i love your sex because i will always mean it" 

Like, are you kidding? I have hopes and dreams and because of the way things seem to go for everyone else I haven't included getting married and having children because although i'm young I can see it's a road to heartache. If i end up with the same guy I'm with now ( Fingers Crossed xo!) then i'll be over the moon if he hasn't screwed anyone else. But what are my chances, I'm very aware that i'm not the  prettiest girl alive, I'm aware I'm probably not the best in bed, and i know i won't stay young forever making other girls come across a lot more attractive and desirable but if i can be loved now then why would any of that matter? Why do people feel they have to have an affair or continuous one-night stands with no-hoped bimbos? Why not just save us some of the heartache and break up, or in some cases get divorced? Some claim they still love you even after cheating or holding up an affair, to me that's bullshit. I'm not Anti-Love, no way in hell for I am myself but if you willingly cheat on your partner then you do not know the feeling of love. You have tricked yourself into something bad, cause if you love someone you wouldn't fool around with anyone else. I would probably slap someone who tried to say "Love isn't the same for me as you, in different" or something along those lines because christ, love isn't spelt differently for each individual person! So why should it be any different? People may describe it differently, sure but there is an extent. 

Although maybe that's why people say the spark is gone? Because while falling in love is exciting and interesting and you're finding new things out about each other for years all of a sudden there's nothing new to learn, no strange hobby you never heard of before and then people stop appreciating their other halves. The spark represents something indescribable, which is why once someone thinks it's gone they can't get it back because they don't know what they lost. But really if you don't take your love for granted and put effort into your relationship then there's no reason it should lose that indescribable feeling you have for the first years of a relationship.

Chow.xo   ;)